the origin of love

goodbye

Wed, 04 Oct 2006 02:37:35 GMT

i am done with this blog.

it represents a time in my life that has ended. heres to a more mature way of looking at the world and myself.

I will continue to take a look at ppls journals..but for me..im out.

bright orange sunflowers for the acting star

Thu, 24 Aug 2006 05:35:18 GMT

my bf is a talented fuckin kid. i am honored.

Mon, 21 Aug 2006 03:09:20 GMT

summer gets better as it ends

Friday night bekky came over and we cooked a feast

Bekk with her pig shaped oiled pan

oh wine and 90s music

very stealth

cheers + caesar salad

Then saturday I baked cookies to bring to Dans

I put them in a shoebox decorated with newspaper clippings

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get me out of here

Wed, 16 Aug 2006 03:47:39 GMT

i must go to halifax

i must go to halifax

i must go to halifax

i must go to halifax

My job is driving me nuts. I miss seeing Dan all the time. I miss my friends. I need to get the fuck out of here. I wish I could have been in Europe for the whole effing summer.

Wed, 26 Jul 2006 05:25:18 GMT

I feel like this is an unhappy summer. its whizzing by, but not fast enough. Im not enjoying myself and I'm craving the moments in halifax. the randomn nights out, the movie sessions, the making pancakes and value villaging with my lovely boyfriend who i barely ever see now. ive spent the past 2 weeks looking for a job im not excited about and wishing i could just cook wonderful dishes for my friends and family and lovers all day. not in a wannabe housewife kind of way but in the i-want-to-create-something-wonderful-that-brings warmth-to others kind of way. Ive fallen too deep in love that i cant think rationally anymore and things are blurry and confusing and stressful and im paranoid and anxious. ive come to depend on my love, to lean back on it to support me, and when it doesnt i kind of just fall and beg for someone else to pick me up. i really have forgotten how to get myself up. i need to remember.

Sat, 22 Jul 2006 04:48:00 GMT

North America has become a culture of fusion. Sometimes I think fusion is bullshit. how about getting back to simple, traditional passionate, pure culture and music?

Just a thought.

Wed, 19 Jul 2006 18:15:54 GMT

i feel incredibly lonely. i dont like it.

Tue, 18 Jul 2006 01:34:55 GMT

ok...so my brother is here..im madly looking for a job and I have no idea what the f is going on with me for the next month and a bit. I miss the idealism of being in europe- how I just forgot there was a world of mundane stresses waiting for me. Toronto doesn't feel the same and its wierd that I havent seen any of my friends here yet.

Im hoping I can make the next month great (good job or bad job) and reconnect with people I had lost some touch with. Maybe Ill squeeze in a road trip to ottawa to see one of my best friends or up to haliburton to visit camp. Maybe I'll take a cooking class. Or maybe I'll just sit outside the last temptation with old friends and laugh about where it all went.

Im home.

Thu, 13 Jul 2006 04:03:56 GMT

i miss the sounds, the sights, the smells, the air, the heartbeats

Thu, 11 May 2006 18:21:45 GMT

Goodbye Canada, Hello Israel and Europe.

i have multiple personalities

Tue, 09 May 2006 05:43:27 GMT

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH EVERYTHINGS GONNA FALL APART AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

shhhhh shhhh michelle, everything will be fine. Just listen to some Joni Mitchell and everything will be fine.

I'm so goddamn nervous its ridiculous. I keep discovering holes in our plans and its freaking me out!!!!

Sun, 07 May 2006 03:37:45 GMT

So i leave for europe in 5 days. I can't believe its that soon. Birthright then Greece, then Italy, then Paris and London.

I'm so frickin excited, but I'm kind of nervous that I won't be in shape for the "extreme outdoor" bright trip or that I'm gonna get robbed in Europe or something horrible like that.

When it comes down to it though, I'm just feeling super super excited.

Dan wrote me a plane letter but i couldn't not read it. Apparently I have absolutely no self control! But it was pretty much the most beautiful wonderful thing ever. I'm gonna travel with it close and anytime I'm maybe feeling confused or stressed I can read it and feel this tremendous sense of peace and love.

Tue, 25 Apr 2006 22:20:55 GMT

ive pretty much spent every day since ive gotten home either roaming around downtown toronto or reading my philip roth book on buses. I spend money only on pins that say "oy gevolt" and subway tickets and sometimes pretty polka dotted wrap dresses.

Its wonderful to be home. At the same time i'm almost not ready at all for travelling. I have no idea wtf im doing or who im travellign with or if i even am travelling. That uncertainty is very scary.

I don't really know if i miss halifax but i definitely miss the ocean and his eyes.

Mon, 24 Apr 2006 03:52:28 GMT

ok its official. i really fuckin miss him.

Wed, 19 Apr 2006 23:52:27 GMT

holy crap its over.

I think i might cry a little but I dont know.
I'm looking around at an empty room and I feel it so horribly in the pit of my stomach.
Here's to an amazing last nite of drinking and reggae and beautiful friends.

Sat, 15 Apr 2006 22:42:24 GMT

last night i went on a halarious double date. we drove to bayers lake and went glow in teh dark mini golfing and went to jack astors. After that we watched "Lucky Number Sleven" which wasn't bad for an average mob flick type movie. There is something so bizarre about double dates...its just like..soo much love in a small space and i kind of felt like laughing the whole time at the ridiculousness of that fact. Plus I suck at mini golf and ended up in last. Strangely enough, both couples tied with our scores..wiiiiiierd!!

After that Dan slept over and we just hung out and watched 12 angry men the movie (AMAZING) and goofed off. I honestly don't evne remember wtf we were doing, just like..dancing around to ben folds and the barenaked ladies and watching Scrubs on DVD. You know you are comfortable with someone when you don't care if you snore or slobber or talk in ur sleep as long as u can wake up next to them.

We made pancakes this morning ( i cooked he cleaned..which im sooo down with) with chocolate chunks (MMMMM). We delivered them to bday girls and sad friends and hungry front desk workers.

Picture time!!!

Kings Seder!

Stevie Me and the Haggadah + lots of wine

is that our birthright trip off in the distance...

President Barker with a piece of Matza!

Me and Dan goofing off

this may not be appropriate for all viewers boys and girls.........

Sun, 09 Apr 2006 04:56:43 GMT

i dont even kno why im updating. i dont really have any thing to say. except that recently ive been consistently craving food and sex and kisses (which isnt helped by the fact that im watching some real hot episode of sex and the city).

I just want oral exams to be over!!!!! AHHHHH!!!

And summer to be here. Sandals and flowy skirts here I come!

Wed, 05 Apr 2006 01:39:13 GMT

Each player of this game starts with the "6 weird habits/things about yourself" and people who get tagged need to write a blog of their 6 weird habits/things, as well as state this rule clearly. In the end, you need to choose 6 people to be tagged and list their names.

1) I make this bizarre face when I look in the mirror. My friends like to make fun of me for this.

2) I sometimes get drunk and sing along to Elton John ballads by myself. The worst part is that my neighbors in residence often hear me.

3) I like to take long baths and listen to tape recordings of Sherlock Holmes myteries or Harry Potter

4) I don't really like being stoned, especially not at concerts. I find it compltely takes away from my enjoyment of the music and the situation and puts me in a horrible state. I only like getting stoned and watching disney movies, or british comedy.

5) I spend hours Googling and Wikipediaing people I know and randomn things that pop into my head.

6) There is nothing I enjoy more than eating japanese takeout and watching over the top classic musicals/bollywood movies.

I tag
freeing,
turquoisexkiss
shakeyrtush
princezzvee
mupiter
ben_brill

RHUBARB

Tue, 04 Apr 2006 04:00:33 GMT

i am so fucking sick of residence. I need my own space so badly, and i need to never have to eat sodexho or put on a bra to go to the bathroom or whatevr.

i dyed my hair redish again and it looks nice and feels smooth and shiny.

my plan for the rest of the evening: get into bed with a movie and some peppermint tea. here i go.

You're a warrior fighting for your soul...

Sat, 01 Apr 2006 23:09:28 GMT

everything is great. i went to shul yesterday. I kind of feel liek going more often for shabbat. its just such a nice way to not have to focus on all the stresses of everyday life and my friends and all that stuff. tonight im going to see matisyahu with 2 randomn kings guys. we're gonna get stoned before and im hoping the concert will fulfill all my expectaitons for its awesomeness.

things are going great with dan. Im just awaiting all this work to be over so i can spend more time with him, and not have to like have these sparatic visits.
i bought him "the prophet" and a selection of poems by yeats and i hope ehs enjoying them. They both happen to be by my favourite poets, so i have a deep appreciation for them both.

sooo pumped for the concert.

oh and i decided that im gonna go friends only on some entries. i kind of miss the ambiguity of having a semi public journal

Fri, 24 Mar 2006 18:21:00 GMT

life is so sweet.

Sun, 17 Apr 2005 04:37:03 GMT

FRIENDS ONLY

Sun, 17 Apr 2005 03:41:01 GMT

i will never eat frozen 3 cheese pizza that is undercooked again.

bat mitzvah tomorrow. hope i wont end up looking like this:

hehe im bored. and in my pjs with the window open.
i bet everyones watching me.

Sat, 16 Apr 2005 01:49:08 GMT

damien rice is my newest obsession.

gah

i love new cds.

Fri, 15 Apr 2005 04:04:30 GMT

JUST KIDDING I LOVE U MITCH! U ARE SEXY LALALA AND U SMELL GOOD AND DONT SUCK.

just dont correct my grammar